The Test...

The reality that this life is a test was never truer than today. I have had some very special experiences this last few weeks that have taken some of the burden of parenting at this stressful and trying time and I have felt joy in the small moments with each of my kids. Elise is never happier than at 5 am when she will coo and smile at me and I eat it up because they aren't small for long and I am going to miss this- four hours of sleep and all. And Carter hates to go to bed at night so he puts his charm on and will giggle and tickle and hold me (like he's the parent and I'm the 3 year old- pricless to see him act as he thinks adults act, I even get rocked and hushed:). Well, today they collaborated to put my newfound patience to the test- screaming and yelling in the car, at Costco and as we were leaving the pool (why did I do so much in one day?!). I can't say I was perfection but I must have passed because I didn't leave them at Costco or the pool, I stil love them so much my heart aches it's so full and they are both sleeping. Thank you Carter and Elise for allowing me to show that I have learned something, I am stronger than I was before. And it goes without saying that tomorrow, we are not going anywhere...


I tried really hard to find a picture of Carter crying as a baby to no avail. Ellie...